Moving Forward

Sometimes I feel like I have moments of major clarity. Everything makes perfect sense and I’m at one with the universe. Other times, I stumble around with my coffee (mostly mornings) and I put my laundry in the oven by mistake. Sometimes, it feels like life is moving me forward. The universe is placing things in my path to discover. This is one of those times. I feel like I’m on the verge of an epiphany where the world will open up for me.

whats-normal1Will it actually happen? Good lord….who knows but the feeling is fantastic. Here’s why I think the universe is planning awesome stuff for me. I’ve met 2 people that I would call close friends. People I just click with. People I can sit and just be quiet with or be gross with. Do you have any idea how rare that is for me? I’ve been living in my current location for over 20 years. In those 20 years, I’ve met a total of 4 people like that. The first was nearly 20 years ago. The next one I met just 3 years ago but she moved to another city. Then I met these next two within the space of a couple of months. How weird is it to make connection like that?

The universe is pushing me to learn Reiki. I keep seeing articles, movies, hearing about it so I finally went to take lessons. Very cool. I’ll keep you posted on how that goes. The next lesson is on the 6th of June. I’ll get the reiki attunement. I’ve heard that the body reacts physically to the process and the side effects last a week or two. Can you imagine? Then I’m also hearing about projects and ideas coming my way. New projects where people want my expertise. It’s fantastic! Maybe my life is going to take an unexpected and awesome departure from the norm. I’m very excited about what the universe is bringing my way.

There’s been plenty of drama at work. People leaving (its a very good thing) and tons of work. The husband is in a long business trip far far away. That also brings it own challenges. The kids always seem to act up when daddy is away. I think they enjoy seeing how long it will take before the vein on my temple starts to throb. So, long story short, life is interesting, exciting and a bit stressful. I’ve been doing well though. Only had 1 half of a beta blocker last week so I consider that a win.

I’m almost at the 6 month mark in my challenge. It’s hard to believe I started this blog 5 months ago! At this point, I’m starting to have motivation issues. The goal was to do more yoga than just Nidra but when I’m stressed, it sometimes feels like I can’t deal with much more. Or, I’m so busy taking care of the family or building that I’m too tired to do some sweaty type yoga. I fall into bed and meditate and/or Nidra. I’m not sure how to motivate myself. Sure I’d like to have more flexible and stronger muscles but I just can’t seem to drag my butt to do it. Its usually 10pm when the kids are in bed and I use that time to catch up on dishes and then pass out. Excuses, excuses…I know. Perhaps I’ll get over my slump. I should do more Yin yoga. That would be SO good for me and I know it.

  • Sunday: Yoga Nidra with Rishin. Nice change from Craig. I do get bored of listening to the same teacher each time.
  • Monday: Drop into Stillness
  • Tuesday: Yoga Nidra
  • Wednesday:Yoga nidra
  • Thursday: No yoga…fell asleep from exhaustion
  • Friday: Yoga Nidra
  • Saturday: Drop into stillness

In the immortal words of Dori the fish….”just keep swimming, just keep swimming”.

Weirdness Upon Weirdness

Ok…so I started the Reiki course today. I don’t know what I expected but it wasn’t what I expected. We spent 3 hours talking. We talked about all manner of things, not just Reiki. ┬áIt was completely and utterly freeing. I feel like I let go of so many things. I got a confirmation of a lot of things…that I’m not the only one experiencing stuff. I actually teared up in the end. Tomorrow is the activation. I can hardly wait. I’m excited to see what comes out of it. If nothing else, the whole experience is sure to be cathartic. If I can learn to let some stuff go, it’s already a win win situation. The other people in the group are just lovely. We all ended up there for different reasons but wow. The teacher said that we give and pull a lot of energy. I am inclined to believe her. It was a very amazing experience.

One thing that really stayed with me was her description of energy. She talked about giving energy in Reiki. In Qigong, the person builds up lots of energy and then uses it to heal others for instance but in doing so, they release the energy, giving it all away. In Reiki, the energy is exchanged rather than just given. It was her metaphor that caught my attention. “Using energy is like breathing. You cannot just breathe out. You must also breathe in.” I really took that to heart. When we give too much in life…we are also just breathing out. At some point, we have to take a breath. Interesting stuff right?

The teacher said we’d probably have some crazy dreams tonight and that we should drink lots of water. I’ll keep you posted.

The weeks yoga:

  • Sunday: Drop into Stillness
  • Monday: Vinyasa Foundations
  • Tuesday: Yoga Nidra
  • Wednesday: Yoga Nidra
  • Thursday: Yoga Nidra
  • Friday: Yoga Nidra
  • Saturday: Yoga Nidra

I feel like my brain is on temporary holiday. I have no tidbits of wisdom or deep thoughts today. I think I used them all during the Reiki class. I cannot wait to tell you how the rest of it goes! If I get another tool to help me balance out my body and deal with stress, it will be worth every penny.